I wish everyday could be my funeral

So that all the people I love could wake up,
Put on their best shoes and walk over from far places to come see me.

All at the same time,
Many many people 
Congregating from all different corners of the world

Would enter my world, to show me their love
Regardless of where we are in life or if anything has distanced us
We would unite together again at this great big party,
Gathering like water from all taps and streams 
Into this lake of love.

Here they arrive, their eyes sobered of any lingering anger directed at me
Their eyes glittering with happiness and softly smiling with their everlasting love for me, which is there, which is there

We congregate here under the maple trees in the open fields, hugged by the same green clovers and soft ground, we
are at peace with each other, we live in peace.

We are like dogs in a dog park, smelling each other, breathing together
Side by side
friends who dance a coordinated dance of touching and moving and 
Coming together and apart.

I wish every day could be my funeral
So I could rip off all the protective layers from others and see their soft bunny spirit dancing inside,
Their raw beating hearts

To be reminded of the love they carry,
The pain they carry
It colors us and if only I could only see where they stand at all times, 
I could be reminded:

We are all friends, 
We are all friends, we are all friends,
We are all friends.

I wish I could have an inner feeling of walking into a party and knowing that it’s my funeral, and everyone is happy to see me. 

I am met with smiling faces,
HOORAY they would all say, YOU ARE HERE! 
A space where I am always welcome, as I am

Come in! They would say and smile as I enter the spaceship
There are stars on the ceiling and the walls are pulsating emphatically
Mesmorizing, warm, enveloping
Wou can come as you are

You are enough 
You are enough 
You are enough 
You are enough 
You are enough 
You are enough 
You are enough 

You are perfect as you are right now You are perfect as you are right now You are perfect as you are right now You are perfect as you are right now You are perfect as you are right now You are perfect as you are right now 

I wish I could see the whole world as a river of smiling friends
Feel the pulse of the stream as the pulse of the streets as the pulse of all beating hearts of all human beings

If only I could sit back and lean on this love at all times and call to me all other birds of feather, all aliens would magnetize
Stick  together

And we really are already stuck together: 
With our two feet decorating the ground with colored gemstones, each of our bodies large and sparkling and adding art and love to this magical world

Feet on the ground,
Adorned by clovers
And anklets and colors
I wish we could all stop doubting and just be 
Just stop triple checking
And double guessing
And trust 
In my body
In now
In my beating heart and respectively in others’ beating hearts 
I wish I could can step into,
Dive into the deep waters of 
What I already am

A beautiful creature

I wish we could all just stop: 
I want all the people I know to take a break from the eternal break they are always taking

And exit the small crowded streets, their small crowded apartments and ascend the staircase onto the rooftops and spread out their arms, smiling and waving

Just so that I can know for sure 

that we are all friends.

Published in the UK (2023) by Earthbound Press.