TELL ME WHAT TO DO
I lie night after night
With the only one I hate more than myself
I feel my bleak presence in the eyes of others
I'm the perfect candidate for therapy I can't afford
Today I was called a cunt at a restaurant
I was trying to talk about a TV show
Where are my hazy pills.
I am plunging the toilet until they surface
Sometimes I catch a glimpse from when I had just gotten off heroin
The leaves on the trees were greener.
Today I plan on taking 4mg less.
The thought of it makes my
How did I end up taking so much.
All this time I thought I was doing the right thing
paralyzed in my apartment til my dealer showed.
Today we pretended to be a couple
you call any sex that we have vanilla
I found your wallet
sent the stuff to the address
I found on your cute little ID
Along with your adorable credit card collection
I work at a dive bar once a week
2 months ago I worked somewhere else
TODAY WE HAD A CONVERSATION THAT WENT COMPLETELY WRONG
You had a sense of fondness in your voice, which is something I have never experienced.
You said she never fought, then stared at me because I fight.
I only wanted to understand what was going on.
I used her as an example, like I could be anybody.
I’m not sure I’m “here.”
You might be non-confrontational and that's just great.
I SOMETIMES THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN IT IS LATE EVEN
THOUGH SOMEONE ELSE IS SLEEPING NEXT TO ME, PT. 2
It was cold in my apartment
I feel warm now
I was petting my giant cat
I miss your face
This is wrong
I never said that
I was in a fantasy I had been dreaming about for 4 years and 3 months
I pointed at "our" couch and "our" cat and "our" microwave
I enjoyed sucking your dick
I think I still love you
This is garbage