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Complicated Feelings Guide for People with Persistent Depressive Disorder Volume I. photo


if you listen to duran duran while prancing around in nature and it's mostly overcast, you will feel like you're missing, but not loved enough to be put on a milk carton

if you kick up some dust and stare at a beam of sunlight, you will see something you’ve only seen while you were still non-verbal, and feel nostalgia for a memory you’ve either let go of or manufactured (does not apply if you were/are a non-verbal adult)

if you have sex with someone who has explicitly stated they do not want a relationship, but keeps texting you like they’re your partner, instead of feeling shame after masturbating, you will feel conflicted about your perspective on love and desire

if you go outside right after sunset and see the world turn your favorite shade of blue, it will last only a few minutes and you will feel disappointed your phone camera cannot quite capture this color

if you suck in your gut throughout the day, you will feel like you’re doing something until the moment you eat some food, and then the sucking in will make you feel like you’re actively dying of gastroenteritis

if you watch more than three cronenberg movies in a row, your counterpart in the mirror dimension will resent you for stretching out your skin, and you will feel somewhat guilty and fearful about it

if you are bilingual, bisexual, and/or bipolar, and you’re travelling abroad on your own, you will feel a sense of conviction that you are supposed to be somewhere else, though that might not be tied to a physical location (if you are travelling by plane this will be accompanied by crying; if you are travelling by bus you will get acne on your ass)

if you listen to world of echo by arthur russell while inhaling mold spores from the corner of your room, you will feel like the color evergreen, and become blissful about the fact that time seems to be slipping away


 


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