I’m watching this kid with glasses shoot baskets
on the driveway court in my memory.
He actually thinks if he wants it enough
he’ll play someday in the NBA.
The fact that he’s Jewish, five foot eight
and all alone in the suburbs hardly matters.
Every car passing by might house a backseat scout.
Ridiculous? Well, he believes this.
Here there’s no such thing as a dream
too big; only a series of commercial quotes
which serve as the basis for increased hustle and grit:
It’s not the size of the dog in the fight, etc.
And now his aims are shifting
from one out-of-reach league to another:
If I make this shot, he says to a God
with whom he still daily communicates,
if I make this shot, Renee in 8th grade
will feel towards me how I feel towards her.
Don’t you see how little it matters
should the ball find the center of net or not?
It’s the hope that’s important, from this great distance,
mixed with a certainty that everything yet can happen.
Today – older, battered, sheltered
by ten thousand bricks accumulated –
I fight to keep that interior kid-candle flickering.
We all do. We have to. The myth we feed to wake up
and face it again. Even here, making this,
I feel myself back at the free throw line,
faith-full, sure as ever that with this next shot…