GIRL POWER
i’ve slept with someone who had a girlfriend
somewhere else i’ve slept with someone who
told me they loved their ex-girlfriend immediately
after sleeping together i’ve slept with someone
who just got back together with their ex-fiance i’ve
slept with someone in a car when i was sober
and it was really good i’ve slept with someone and
their brother i know i know i know i’ve slept with
someone i was in love with once and it was terrible
HOUSE PARTIES
i think my most
prominent
sexual fantasy
is to be at lunch
with a group
of russian men
who love me
but haven’t told me yet
in the fantasy
everyone is in
love with each
other and also
with bill clinton
or vodka
we’re also listening to
lil wayne
and making eye
contact
and i am talking
to one of them
about having
a mild interest
in glowsticks
or maybe everyone
is quiet
but either
way i am
wearing
a lot of
velvet
i think
my most
prominent
emotional fantasy
is to find
someone
who loves me
enough
to kill me
but i don’t know
that kind of
turns me on
so maybe it
should be my most
prominent
sexual fantasy instead
MOMENTS FROM HIGH SCHOOL
got really high and went to the mall and thought everyone in the food court was a cop
took ecstasy before senior homecoming dance, arrived at dance to find dad was the dj
vague memory of driving home very slowly through (possibly hallucinated) road work while extremely high on ether
fell asleep in cheerleading coach’s classroom instead of going to lunch, got suspended for skipping class
stood in friend's parents' yard with two friends, one friend got on all fours behind me and the other friend pushed me causing me to fall over friends on all fours, felt really scared
went to mexican restaurant with ~5 other girls after we participated in a beauty walk
vague memory of getting in trouble/getting ‘called out’ for yawning at ~7am during cheerleading camp
did coke for the first time
did coke in a dippin dots bathroom
teacher ‘got in my face’ and asked if i was a christian, felt confused and sleepy
woke up on the ground tripping on acid at a string cheese concert , chubby man in overalls happily dancing over me
BREAK-UP POEM
i listen to motorhead
drink coffee
pray you’ll never have good sex again
get really tan
fuck everyone i know
