let's forget the time we fought
and just say
that i have a specific kind of fear
when i am in the club
thinking about the pieces of my body i have lost in the world
pieces of skin and blood
an empty grapefruit
when it is Saturday
one in the morning
and you say:
"the moon is like an empty cereal bowl"
and i want to be raptured by Rihanna
drink a kale smoothie in the desert.
and it's almost by accident
i feel lucky
to be in the place between pavement and sky.
i think more about:
clouds, candy, bats
i am thinking about you also but in a non-specific way.
getting a head rush
near blacking out
i see visions:
i thought i was in the NBA playoffs
i thought i was a baby
in the NBA playoffs.
drinking orange juice on the sidewalk
trying to turn into an orange in a snow bank.
i get a text
"should order pizza tonight"