I Have No Idea How Tall I Am
That can’t be me in this photograph…
Who would believe the landscape,
the boundary of the print’s white border?
Fingertips and a smudge and a smudge—
we might as well have erased the reflection,
the memory card.
How long will we last?
All I want for my birthday is one of those cameras that needs a 3.5” floppy disk for storage,
that or a rock into the streetlight.
We could see the stars.
How did they get in here?
Everyone Says Things Like
“you can’t set a poem at midnight in the rain” but they’re also be unable to help feeling gravity most when walking outside at midnight in the rain because most days we feel the rain is the only reminder we have that we’re anchored to the world that everything is coming down on us that without tons and tons of rocket fuel and a rocket to strap ourselves into we are stuck grounded fucking screwed when things start getting real and no one will ever know how much time we have and no one knows how much rain it would take to clean everything off and no one knows even when the rain will start yes they say they do but they’re lying
In the Future Every Olympian Will Be Gay
Okay I still can’t chill out about Adam Rippon,
gold and fully beautiful and beautifully speaking
truth to power and fiercely himself and thank god!
In high school I would’ve died to see him twirl
on the ice, recorded it on VHS to rewind and replay
like I did the TV special of Footloose, sneaking down
to the basement for the locker room scene
over and again, would've, dear lord,
wallpapered my room with his ESPN cover.
I’m so into young queers having role models on the news
but still I see myself watching in shame, transfixed
knowing my father’s disapproval upstairs, not
realizing for years that, yes, things actually
get better, and if this is queer futurity, this
rapid reimagining of what the past could’ve been
and should once again be, thank you, thank you, Adam!
The future is tethered to your glittering present.
In my daydreams I see nothing but your sashaying,
so full of longing, this gilded emoji I call a heart!
In my bloodstream I feel nothing but your glee.
Here, the introduction of the body into the poem,
of the ice into the body, of the skater… I promised myself
I wouldn’t turn this into a sex poem, never mind, oh,
the million things I could think to do with you,
never mind the reason being nothing I predict in poems
ever seems to materialize. There is hope and then
there is the future, the sculpted athlete’s body and
then there is the future. Adam, a projection:
2042 and rainbow flag after rainbow flag waving in
the stands and no one knows which is for whom.
America’s hosting and you’ve lit the opening torch.
There’s beautiful snow striking the beautiful light,
oh light, bright as your bleached smile, a crown.