The first month after my ex-(now current)-girlfriend and I broke up I spent a lot of time driving aimlessly and sitting alone in my apartment listening to music and feeling sorry for myself. Here are some things I wrote about the albums I listened to during that time.
Runners In The Nerved World - The Sidekicks
I started listening to Runners In The Nerved World a few days before and immediately after the breakup.
I initially started listening to the album with the intention of reviewing it, but immediately felt dread via having subjected myself to listening to something I most likely would have otherwise "just simply" enjoyed had I not committed to reviewing the album before listening to it, combined with my very real fear of obligation of any sort - so I procrastinated on writing about it until I had the idea to review every review I could find on the internet re the album which "freed me," to some degree, from a certain pressure I was putting on myself, and allowed me to listen to the album in a pleasurable, non-goal-oriented manner.
I felt strongly connected, gradually, with the album, in a weird "cosmic" way that caused me to listen to it on repeat in an obsessive, vaguely meditative manner for a period of ~1.5 weeks.
Most Listened To Songs: [Every song equally]
Get Lonely - The Mountain Goats
While freaking out about the breakup, my friend Ziggy said something like "Sometimes you just gotta Get Lonely it." I said something like "For sure" in a confident tone while only feeling able to remember a song or two from the album.
I listened to Get Lonely in its entirety that night while crying and chain smoking. I felt a "deeper" emotional connection with the album listening to it this time as opposed to previous times I'd listened to it. It felt cathartic to hear certain complicated-feeling emotions that I could experientially relate with expressed in such a 'uniquely crafted, yet simple, in terms of words, or whatever, but somehow abstractly incredibly effective, to me' manner
I texted Ziggy thanking him for the Get Lonely recommendation.
I listened to this album a lot after that night, mostly while alone in my apartment. I repeatedly suppressed urges to text my ex-girlfriend recommending that she listen to it.
Most Listened To Songs: "Wild Sage," "Half Dead," "Get Lonely," "Moon Over Goldsboro," "In The Hidden Places," "Woke Up New," "If You See The Light," "In Corolla."
If You're Reading This It's Too Late - Drake
I read somewhere that Drake released a new album (mixtape?) but didn't listen to it until a week or so after hearing about it, due to not feeling ready to listen to anything other than Get Lonely or Runners In The Nerved World yet.
I decided to listen to If You're Reading This It's Too Late one morning while doing dishes. I listened passively until I heard the line "Fuck going online, that ain't part of my day" on the song "Energy," at which point I stopped doing the dishes and listened - and paid attention - to the first half of the album while sitting on my futon and smoking and texting some friends about it.
I started doing dishes (again) but stopped (again) to smoke and focus after hearing Drake repeatedly say "mama" on the song "You & The 6," which seemed interesting/funny to me.
I went to my friend John's house later that day and we listened to the album while doing things in his bedroom. Listening to it with John made me feel a degree of awareness re the absurdity of some of the things Drake was actually saying that I hadn't felt before.
John and I repeatedly said "It's so bad" and "It's so good," re certain lines, or the tape as a whole, while grinning and/or laughing, John often repeating a specific lyric while shaking his head. I remember one interaction going something like:
John: [Shaking head, repeating a lyric] "It's so bad."
Me: "Yeah... [laughing] but I like, can't stop listening to it."
John: "I know, man, I know, me too. I love it."
Most Listened To Songs: "10 Bands," "You & The 6," "Energy," "Jungle," "Know Yourself,"
All Turns Blue - Andy Cook
I listened to ~63% of All Turns Blue but I listened to the title track on repeat ~2 days straight, most memorably while driving through the Metro Parks in sunlight.
I remember telling different people at different times "I [felt] like if this song had been written like, in a different time period, everyone would know it. Like...it'd be a classic or whatever."
Most Listened To Songs: "All Turns Blue," "Waitin' for the Man," "Somethin' to See," "Hear That Train?"
Cerulean Salt - Waxahatchee
The first song I heard by Waxahatchee was "Swan Dive" and I instantly liked a lot and felt surprised by.
I listened to the rest of Cerulean Salt gradually, out of order, but ended up liking every song on the album a lot.
Most Listened To Songs: "Swan Dive," "Lively," "Brother Bryan," "Blue Pt. II," "Tangled Envisioning."
Luca Brasi 2 - Kevin Gates
My friend Kevin has a job where he drives around ~2 hours/day checking/fixing rental bikes and sometimes I ride with him. He introduced me to Luca Brasi 2, which I've listened to, to varying degrees, on a daily basis since.
I also spent hours watching Kevin Gates interviews.
Most Listened To Songs: "I Don't Get Tired (#IDGT)," "John Gotti," "Out The Mud," "Sit Down," "In My Feelings," "Pourin The Syrup," "Word Around Town," "Making Love."